Frustrated

I've come to a realization that I tend to write only when I'm frustrated. But seriously, it's times like these when I learn the most, and am the most thankful that I have the most amazing God.

Yea I'm frustrated.

I turn to God.

I complain.

I complain a little more.

Maybe cry for little bit. (Not really)

And He says is that all?

He says everything is going to be fine.

He smiles at me.

I smile back.

It's amazing to know that someone thinks I'm perfect. Despite my imperfections, I'm loved and liked.

Frustration relieved.

Jesus

Post-College, work, and a long distance relationship makes life really interesting.

It's astonishing the amount of patience that Jesus had. How is it possible that despite all of my imperfections, short-comings, blow-ups, complaints, etc, He continues to be on my side.

He really does love me.

He really cares for me.
He really believes in me.

He is always on my side.

He will never leave me.

I pray that I continue to believe that regardless of how my life is going.

Yea it's been really hard. I hate not being satisfied. But knowing that Christ is utterly, and completely satisfied with me, helps me to see the greater picture.

I know I'm not perfect, but He thinks I am.

"Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you."

-1 Peter 5:7

Music is what feelings sound like. I feel like this.

Pleased and Satisfied.

I have to say, I think I've become a sucker for lyrics now. Usually for me, it's all about intense melodies, especially how the electric guitar tears up a track, but lyrics have grown on me. I was listening to a song and the bridge goes likes this

But the harder I try the more clearly can I feel

The depth of our fall and the weight of it all

And so this might could be the most impossible thing

Your grandness in me making me clean.

When I look back into my past life, I felt like a hamster and his wheel. Staying completely in one position, never getting anywhere. Trust me, I've tried hard. Trying to pay off my debt of life by trying to please God not only made me feel worst about my debt, but literally at times I felt I was doomed. The bridge of this song sums up my life. The most impossible thing, making me clean was finally attainable. not by my works but His. He lives in me. And when God sees me he sees a completely debt, sin, problem free Jesus. 

Galatians 2:20

²⁰ I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

Hebrews 10:17

 ¹⁷ Then he adds:
   “Their sins and lawless acts 
   I will remember no more.”

Now, I'd rather live by faith instead of trying to live a life of faithfulness. Because a life of faithfulness is me. I fail. But to live by faith, He does it all. He leads me.

I have a God that is completely pleased and satisfied with me. Why? Cause He did it all and thank God it's not based on my merit then surely I am doomed.

Believe.

untitled.

It's interesting to me how i'm more thankful after thanksgiving. It's almost Christmas time but I have this inclination to be thankful rather than to give. I got to experience a person's prayer getting answered where I played a part in. We live in a world that destroys hope, but the hope in Christ truly perseveres. Just thoughts in my head that I wanted to jot down.

Where there is pain
Let us bring grace
Where there is suffering
Bring serenity
For those afraid
Let us be brave
Where there is misery
Let us bring them relief
And surely we can change
Surely we can change
Oh surely we can change
Something

Thanks

I am thankful for:

1. The pure unapologetic enjoyment of Jesus.
2. My amazing family.
3. My amazing e3 family.
4. Guitars
5. My friends.
6. My new friend.
7. The list goes on........

It's the season of thankfulness. It's a pretty awesome season. I am reminded of how much I'm blessed by those around me.

Keepin it simple today.

Thanks.

Simplicity

It's the simple things in life that make life that much more enjoyable.

A warm bowl of soup on a cold day
A hot cup of tea
A simple poem
A simple sigh
An empty park bench under the shade
The presence of a loved one
Your pastor saying I'm so blessed by you
Simply letting go
The list goes on...

Why make something simple complicated? I've struggled with simplicity cause I guess I like to make things complicated. Jesus makes my life simpler. Yes I do run into complications all throughout my life, but simply trusting in Him, life becomes more enjoyable as I wait upon His blessings.

Sometimes the most simplest of things are the most complicated. It's easier to do things our way rather than trusting Him, but immediately when He takes over, the ride smoothes out.

We need to let go.
Let Him take over.

I wish to simply be and receive.
As I receive His perfect love.
May I return with joyful gratification.

He is the vine.
I am a simple branch.
Apart from Him I can do nothing.
Literally.

I wish to live simply.

Beauty

I can't describe it
The beauty of it all consumes my heart
It's striking how You would lose it all
To have me
You have this heart
It's forever Yours

Your affections
Your infatuation
Completely arouse my senses
Knowing
I'm fully loved
I'm fully enjoyed
I'm changed